What's on my mind??

Been having lots of disturbing images and voices in my head lately...especially when I am fatigue, laying on my bed and getting all ready to sleep...

Yet, the disturbing scenes kept running on my mind, kept me awake and distressed.

Even if I am asleep, my dreams seem disturbing as well....First few nights is all about people dying...It happen even during a short nap...then it slowly tune down but it still seems to be solemn and gravely...and most of the time I was waken up by these dreams...

At first I suspected it was due to the stress on finishing up my FYP draft...

Then it came to this ridiculuos or some might said superstitious thoughts...Is '清明节' (qingming festival)....

Slowly I realised that it always started with a scene I heard in one of my class...on how this 'people' would got beaten up if they had request on their clients...then it leads to more and more violence and disturbing images that I had forgotten ages ago...it all seems to be coming back to me now...

Wonder what would happen if I had watched The Clockwork Orange?? or any of such genre movies?? Would I go insane??

Enough already with whats in my mind, yet today in class, lecturer highlighted those creepy, horrifying cum voilent movies...thanks god I never heard of any of those before...but she goes on with describing briefly on those scenes in the movie...Oh God~~

What worst was when she told the class about how people in the rural area kill their newborn...OH MY GOD~~

That might be one of the last thing people would want to hear about...

I am more worry about my sleeping issue now...Will people die of exhaustion like this?? Hope not but its really troubling me...

"Haiz".

我的情感.....

最近发现自己情绪有点低落。

无论再上课, 吃还是玩乐...感觉还是很空虚 ,心情总是闷闷不乐的。

连对自己最爱吃的芝士也无感觉了。

在这星期六天, 情绪好像有好转。 虽然整理房间有点累, 但是再累汗中我还是感觉到心旷神怡。

度过了一个忙碌的周六, 身体都累极了。

闹钟的响声都将我从酣睡中惊醒了, 令我悲从中来。

挣扎了一段时间, 终于说服了自己, 对自己说, "今天想要松弛的心情. 化悲痛为力量, FYP一定会有进展的!"。

可惜, 为了那一点点的小事情都闹气了。 留下了车子和她, 而带走了一肚子的气和眼泪。

我选择一个人挨饿。

明知道这只是个愚蠢的 固执, 但还是冲动的做了这个错误。

看来我又加多了一条疤痕在我们的感情上。

对不住, 再一次伤害了妳和我的心。

对不住, 我达不到你对我的期望。


情绪再一次减弱了, 沮丧又一次回到我身边..............

Just For You, Dad.....

Daddy,

I understand that men show their love in a different way from women. You may not mention it often, but I always know how much you care & love for me.

I never forget the hardship you gone through to bring me up and become who I am today.

• You provide me with education I need. Thank you dad!!
• You give me the freedom to choose my own life. Thank you dad!!
• You trust me with the bottom of your heart without a single doubt. Thank you dad!!
• You work so hard to fulfill all my needs and wants. I could say that I'd been taken care well by you. Thank you dad!!

Besides, I always remembered how you would spare your time every year to take my report cards and fetch me to school or tuition or clinic when I was sick. In addition, I would also always remembered the incident where you had to rush back from KL just to send me to tuition. On top that, I also remembered how you spent so much to buy me the Chinese medication during the trip at Hong Kong and we ended up controlling our scarce finances.

Thank you for everything you had done for me. I may not said this often or I had never said this before, but I would really like to take this special day to tell you how much you mean to me.

THANK YOU SO MUCH DAD!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

Daddy, you are my everything and my world too.....

This is my dad, my world....
DAD, YOU ARE THE BEST!!!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!

=)

p/s : To all fathers, Happy Father's Day!!!

Happy Birthday Mum!!!

Just wanna wish ya

'HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!'

May your life filled with love & joy always...

Love you ~muacks~

On the 6th of June 2009, we celebrated my mummy's birthday at Ah Keat Seafood, Raja Uda. Below are some pictures of the event......

These are some the dishes we ordered

The finished dishes

Mummy's birthday cake

Daddy, Mummy & her cake

Candle lighted

Untied the ribbon

Cake cutting ceremony

Mummy & Grandpa

Mummy & I

p/s : Thanks grandma for giving birth to this wonderful woman. Love you too....

Mother's Day Pre-celebration

On Saturday night (9th May), we had a Mother's Day celebration with the ice-cream cake - by sis & me - together with Grandpa and also Uncle Jason & family.....

Mother's Day Ice-cream Cake

Well, this is a short celebration. We will be having another dinner on Sunday night...

Hopefully there are more to write about and more pictures to be posted....

Mummy with her cake

The 2 mothers with baby Jun

My family & baby Jun

p/s: Sis, I know your heart was here with us..... :P

Just For You, MUM...

Mummy,

If I have never thanked you for bringing me to this world, I would like to thank you now.

If I have never thanked you for bringing me up, I would like to thank you now.

If I have never thanked you for being proud of every little things I'd achieved, I would like to thank you now. I would also like to tell you that I am proud to have you as my MUM!!!

If I have never thanked you for enduring all my bad attitudes and behaviors, I would like to thank you now. I know I had took you for granted - knowing that you will always be there for me, knowing that you will always showered me with your unconditional love, knowing that you will accept & love me for who I am. I had always been throwing my tantrums on you. I know I had promise you that I will changed but I always failed. Believe me, this time I'll try harder.

If I have never thanked you for showering your love and care on me, I would like to thank you now. Thank you for being there with me when I was sick. Every time I was sicked, you will be there by my side taking care of me. You never thought of yourself - never thought of how tired you would be or how you may be infected. The only feelings exist were worry and pain. I never forget the worried and hurt feelings reflected in your eyes when I got food poisoning in Korea and Kenny said that if my vomiting continues, the only thing he could do was to send me to the hospital. At that time, you were there by my side all the time -missing all the activities and fun.

I am sorry that I had never showed my gratitude for everything you have done for me. I know it is not right to acknowledge and show my gratitude to you only during Mother's Day but I would still like to take this opportunity to thank you.

THANK YOU SO MUCH MUM!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

As you know, I am not an expressive person (except for expressing my anger). However, I would try to express my gratitude towards you more often.

Mummy, to the world you might be just a person, but to me you are the world......

This is my mum, my world...
YOU'RE THE BEST, MUM!!!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

Here is an e-present just for you

(Pink carnation as a sign of my gratitude)

"The love that a mother devoted to her child was the greatest love of all...."

p/s : To all mothers, Happy Mother's Day!!!

- Just For Laugh -

There is this story about Ah Beng I would like to share.

Ah Beng bought a new phone.
He sent a message to everyone from his phone book and said,
"My Mobile number has changed.
Earlier it was Nokia 3310. Now it is 6610"


*ROFL*